That-Very-Brief-Hiatus-That-Wasn't-Supposed-to-Be-A-Hiatus Hiatus.

So for the past few weeks, I've taken an accidental hiatus. Something people don't tell you about moving is that there's a lot of stuff you need to do and a lot of stuff you need to buy.

Example 1: Cooking utensils. Who knew I would need to buy a whisk? And a set of knives? And a grater? Not me, apparently. It's just always been there at home.

Example 2: Internet. My roommate was in charge of sorting out our electricity and gas. I was put in charge of internet. I always thought I was pretty savvy with the computer but one call to The Father proved that I was, in fact, kidding myself.

It's all swell now though. I've got internet. I've got most cooking utensils. I've settled back into uni. Life has settled back down.

So. Apologies.

My next big thing is getting both this blog and my BookTube channel back on track. And schoolwork. Obviously. Because that's important. I mean, it's not like it's my last year of university or anything.

*cue hyperventilating*

NaNoWriMo & Life.

Firstly, apologies (again) for my absence. As I'm sure you've figured out, my 'blog-everyday-in-November' challenge failed miserably. I mean, at first I did really well. But then my exams became my primary focus and I fell behind and I couldn't get back up.

Then, about midway through the first week, I decided that I should just push back this whole venture till January. That way I'd be less stressed and I think it'd just work much better overall. So, come January, expect a blogpost everyday.

I bet you're thinking now, 'Oh, because Jocie let herself go in the blogging department, she must have done really well with NaNoWriMo, right?' Nope. I failed just as miserably at that. I only wrote about 8,200 words. It's a little disappointing, but I am happy with what I did accomplish. I just wish I'd written more.

Despite these disappointments, I did decide to start BookTubing again. I also have the next few weeks of blogs planned out. So hopefully I'll be back on track with things soon.

I will admit now, however, that I might not be as active as I want. Why? Because Christmas is a thing. And because Christmas is a thing, it means retail is in it's busiest time. And because retail is in it's busiest time, it means I'm working a hell of a lot.

But we'll see how I go. Pinky promise to try my best anyway.

Guess Who's Blogging Everyday in November?

Meeeee. In conjunction with the whole 'I'm-going-to-do-NaNoWriMo-challenge-and-win' mindset I've given myself, I decided to up the challenge. I'm going to blog everyday this month.

Is this going to work? Probably not.

Am I going to give it a cracker of a shot anyway? Yes.

I have scheduled the whole month out, and I think it's doable. Hopefully. I'm just going to have to learn to juggle this and NaNoWriMo and an assignment and study for this first week. Then I'll be as free as a butterfly.

Speaking of NaNoWriMo, you'll see updates here. I'm thinking right now I'll stick to one update blog every ten days. That way it's not overkill, but the progress won't seem crazy huge. Obviously there'll be other posts, but let's keep them as a surprise (also, there isn't really any sort of rhyme or reason to it, so it's better if I just don't try and justify it).

How about I give you a few stats now, on Day 1? I have written 3,543 words so far. Pretty happy with that. Hopefully the overachieving streak will continue.

I am trying to write a fantasy. Minor problem: I have nothing planned out at all. Hopefully I won't get too lost in the middle. Let's see how we go, shall we?

So, this is blog post #1. I apologise in advance if you hate me by the end of the month.

Being 19.

Like I mentioned in my last blog post, I turned nineteen a month and a bit ago. The verdict is still out, but right now my feelings on the age are of the 'meh' persuasion. Now, I've thought about why this is. I haven't written his impetuously. I thought long and hard about why I might feel this way. Here they are -

Reason #1: Just in terms of symbolism, there is none in the age of nineteen. Eighteen is the age of technical legality, alcohol, tattoos, and 'adulthood.' You can suddenly do everything by yourself, without any parent's permission. Twenty is the age of 'yay, I actually survived into adulthood. This probably wouldn't have happened two hundred, three hundred years ago.' And then, there's twenty-one. Twenty-one is the age of fully-fledged adulthood. Nineteen is nothing.

Reason #2: Eighteen was actually a really good year for me. I will admit that there's a chance that I'm thinking of 2013 in its entirety as my 18th year, when in fact I'd only turned eighteen in the August of it, but nonetheless. I'd made new friends, started at (a great) uni, figured out who exactly I was. It was great. I worry that with eighteen being so great, nineteen will only be a let down.

Reason #3: I was at uni all day on my birthday. Now, I know what you're thinking. 'God, Jocie, this is just a special type of sulking.' No, I don't agree with that. Sort of. I have no problem with going to uni or work on my birthday - I've had to do it in the past, and I don't like to think I'm spoilt. But the day didn't have that normal-magical-birthday-feeling to it - what if that's an omen for how this year is going to go? If that's some sort of indication, then I am not keen. And

Reason #4: It's one year closer to being an actual adult. I don't want to be an adult. Like, I know when the time comes, I'll deal with it, but not really a fan of it right now. I liked the in-between privilege of being eighteen.

So, yeah. That's my thoughts on being nineteen. Does anybody else feel this way about the age? Or am I just alone in thinking it's a little weird?

Hey, remember me?

Remember when I used to post regularly? Yeah, neither do I.

Apologies are required. So hi, sorry, and I'm back. To be honest, I don't really know where this post is going to go. I didn't really have any aims coming into this. I was just sitting in my room, listening to Taylor Swift (She's like a boomerang. I love her, then distance myself from her music for a little bit, and here I am loving her again), before work on a Sunday morning.

So, what's been up?

Uni. Uni is what's up. I'm on mid-semester break right now, and I'm fully anticipating spending my time reading and relaxing (but that probably won't happen). I have hit the point where my drive for doing schoolwork has gone down the toilet. In fact, I'm writing this right now so I can expressly avoid my marketing readings.

Oh, I turned 19. Yea. To be honest, I'm not really a fan of it. It's just a number - there's no real significance to it. It's a bleh year between 18 (woah, legal adult!) and 20 (woah, no longer in the teen years!). My birthday itself was not exciting. I spent the entire day at uni, so I guess you can get an idea from that.

Apologies for the huge chunk of reviews you got all in one hit. I just hadn't been doing any for a while, and it was getting ridiculous, and I had all these notes about the books lying around, and so I needed to write them. So of course, the obvious response was to schedule five in a row. I promise that there will be more variation in the coming posts.

Haven't been reading anything because again, no time. It's a thrilling life I lead.

So anyway, this is just a quick post saying 'hi,' and I'm back and expect regular blogs once more. Right now, I'm thinking one post a week. Depending on how productive I am this week, that might be upped to the regular two or three. We'll see.

That Time When My Blog Looked Significantly Different.

As I'm sure you're able to gather, I made a few changes on the blog the other night. It all kind of happened at once. This isn't because I was procrastinating either. Oh no, I was actually doing schoolwork. Anywho, the things I changed:

a) The URL. It's a little different now. Before, I'd had it as 'jocieclaire.' It always bothered me that the URL and my blog's name were different. Now it's 'terreritafleurs.' It just makes more sense to me. There's symmetry now, and that makes my inner-perfectionist happy.

b) The general design of the blog is different. I liked it before, but now it looks fancy. There's actual social media buttons, and the pages are centred and I'm just really digging it. And I did it all. By. Myself. Pfft, who needs a degree in graphic design?

I think that's all I changed. I mean, I did a bit of an overhaul of my About Me page, but exactly zero people care about that. Maybe I should just turn this into a general update? Yep. Let's do that.

I'm well into uni now. Already, there is so much to do. I'm feeling good about it though. So far, I've been keeping on top of everything, and I am genuinely enjoying all of my classes. Yes. Even poetry.

The problem however, is that it's left me with not a whole lot of time. I've read little in the past two weeks. I've blogged little in the past two weeks. And on the whole, I just wish readings didn't take so long.

Oh. It's my birthday this month! I'm turning the big 1-9. Nothing too insane. I found it's going to be on a Monday, and on Monday's I spend nearly seven hours at uni. So, basically: It's going to be great fun.

I have to apologise for how ill-written this is. I promise the next few ones will be better.

The Future.

Today, I've got to start packing. That's kind of what my life is nowadays. Moving back and forth between uni and home. Uni ending, so I get a month off to go home. I get settled. Do things. Don't really want to leave. The thing about holidays is that they always eventually end. Unfortunately, my mid-year break is about to end. I wouldn't be complaining about this if I felt like I'd done more. I had a whole six weeks off, and it feels like I did next to nothing. I mean, I know I re-did my room, but I had so many more plans.

I wanted to start working on a novel. I wanted to finish editing my friend's manuscript. I wanted to try to do some more driving lessons.

Instead, it seems like I can't even finish a short story.

I don't know. This happens every time, doesn't it? It's not even like I don't want to go back to uni - I do. I miss my friends, and I miss living in a city that's bigger. But it's like, no matter where I go, I'm going to miss someone.

That's the realities of growing up, I guess.

I always laughed when I was younger at people who were terrified of getting older. Ironically, I think  I've become one of them. I think it's because there's no stability or security in the future anymore. Again, sort of funny given how much I like to embrace change.

The difference, I think, is that when I embrace change, I know what's coming. There's no guarantee for the future. Things just aren't going to be as simple.

I realise that this post makes me sound incredibly sad. I'm not. There are some things I'd like to change, but I am happy. It's just like Emily said, I guess. I'm feeling nostalgic for now.

(I wrote this last week, but scheduled it for this week. Sorry if that's a little confusing)

A Little Announcement.

In the last few weeks, a little thing has happened and now that it is properly out in the world, I thought it was about time I actually told you guys. As a blogger, one thing I do a lot is read other blogs. Particularly, book blogs. It's a lot of fun, and it's one of my primary ways of knowing what's happening. Recently (and by recently, I probably mean a couple of months ago), I found a new site: Book Nerd Reviews.

The obsession hit fast and with force. Somehow, I came across blog post from 2013 asking for a co-blogger. Of course, I didn't actually see the date. Why would I bother with the details? Anyway, I sent off my application, quick smart.

A week or so later, a reply comes. It's Melissa. She informs me that the post in question was from last year. My embarrassment is at an ultimate high. And then she asks, 'Do you want to be a contributor?'

And that's where it's at. This is why I'm here. Guys, I'm going to be a contributor at Book Nerd Reviews. Don't fear! The reviews won't stop here on this tiny blog. I'll still be doing my thing (or trying to). I'll just be over there as well.

I'm just very excited! Melissa and Kristy are lovely human beings, and I can tell it's going to be a blast. The blog itself is also pretty fab. Obviously. 

I'll stop typing now before I become even more rambly. But that's my news! 

&&&

On another note, what are some good blogs you guys like? I'm on the hunt for a few good 'uns. Lemme know in the comments. :)

So, My Hair.

I might've changed it again. It wasn't that I was unhappy with how my hair looked - I'd gotten used to it. But then I was doing something and I came across the exact colour I'd wanted. And the rest is history. 

I actually went to the hairdressers this time though. Why? I texted Best Friend Georgia and was like 'THIS is what I want,' and she was like 'Well, it'll really suit you but you're actually going to have to get your hair lightened, so you're actually going to have to go into a salon.'

So I went to a salon, spent an extortionate amount (I was there for a really long time though. So, I can kind of understand), and now have luscious copper locks.

BEHOLD, THE RED (or orange)

I just really, really like it. The only problem is that now I can't be lazy about my hair - I actually have to be on top of colour maintenance. Totally worth it though!

Apology in Advance.

I just want to apologise in advance. My posting's are going to be, and have been, all over the place. The lowdown: I've got just under four weeks before my big mid-year uni break (Holla at no exams!). I've got six pieces of assessment that are due. That's like, one and half assignments due every week (but not really. The due dates are a little towards the end of the semester).

I'm not necessarily stressed, but most of my energy is going into making sure I don't leave things till the last minute. So I don't have a stress breakdown. It's a little confusing, I know.

With this blog, I tend to work in bursts. I mean, they're pretty often bursts, but bursts nonetheless. I'm going to work on writing up at least three blog posts each time this happens. That way I can schedule things. Nothing will seem odd. There will be a smooth transition. Fun times. Unicorns. Rainbows.

Not a whole lot has been happening with me. Still single. Still trying to write things then inevitably getting stuck (I'm not going to get into this in this, because there's a blog post coming your way soon on it). Still a little emotionally destroyed from The Fault in Our Stars movie. Still feeling restless about where I'm living. Still getting angry over politics. So, you know. The usual, I guess.

I'm going to go now and work on some other proper blog posts now. See you guys soon. Tataaaa.

Dating. Weh.

When you think about courtship or dating at its core, it's a really odd thing.
      "I really like you so I'm going to buy things for you and food and that is going to prove to you my affection."
I mean, I'm generalising a lot (but not really. If you buy me food, you've already won my heart), but it's just really odd?

It's just like kissing. The more you think about it, the more you realise that the human race are just a bunch of weirdos.
     "Oh, I really like you, so I'm going to show you how much I like you by putting my lips against yours and inserting my tongue into your mouth*"

If you can't gather, I'm in what is frequently becoming a mood. A mood of being bloody sick of being single. Now, most of the time, I don't have a problem with it. I like my freedom and I like my independence. But I have had 18 years of singledom**. Now I want to experience a proper relationship.

It's this really fine line though, isn't it? Because every so often (read: every other day or so), I'll be so 'ehhhh' about being single, but then I'll use the above trick to placate myself. And I'll keep telling myself that I'm ok with being single because really? Being in a relationship is kinda weird (I think. I mean, I wouldn't know. I'm just guessing here).

I think I'm a little terrified of the idea. I always say that my standards are set so high because I've read too many books (and it's true), but I'm not exactly vivacious from the get-go. I mean, I can be but it doesn't happen often. Is it wrong that I want a guy where I don't feel like I have to try? Where I don't have to force the extrovertedness out of my mouth? I don't know. Eh.

I've been thinking about why this whole no-relationship thing has happened though. Why guys don't fall for my (non-existent) wily charms. So, list.
1. Socially Awkward and Shy. This will forever be my downfall. It takes me a while to become comfortable around people on a normal day. If I get a bad vibe from you, then I'm prickly for forever. If I get a good vibe from you, then chances are, I'll be your best friend. If I get nothing, there will be this middleness, where awkward silences tend to occur but I'll try.
2. Don't Really Go to Parties (which is something I'm working on). No, I seriously am working on it. I didn't go out at all last year. I have this year. Boys just don't approach me. And I don't have the self-confidence to approach them. Maybe my silence intimidates people.
3. Don't Really Know That Many Guys. This might just be a small problem. Maybe.
4. Standards are Ridiculously High, Thank You so Much Fiction. I wish I was even kidding.

Any tips of working with that lot of flaws? Maybe I should do a series on the blog and call it, 'Jocie's Adventures in Dating'? That's quite catchy. Boyssssssssss why won't you approach meeeeeeeeee?***

So, friends. I'm calling out for help. If you think that you know a guy who I would like, let me know? Ta. In advance.


*apologies for that vivid (and unwarranted) imagery there
**if we don't count that one time I had a sort-of boyfriend for two days
***I think I've figured out why it hasn't happened yet. I didn't share that one post way back when and I actually did get cursed with 7 years of bad luck. Goddammit.

An Explanation

It's amazing how much something can change in a year. In January this year, I was in my prime: I was enjoying the whole process of video-making, the ideas were flowing, it was great. Now I feel almost stagnant. If I can avoid talking to the camera, I do. I don't feel comfortable talking to the lens (which is ironic, given how comfortable I've become with myself), and all the ideas I have don't feel original or genuine.

I know I didn't say enough about why I'm leaving YouTube in my bye-bye video, so I thought I'd attempt to expand here.

First and foremost, I don't enjoy making videos anymore. If I'm being completely honest, I haven't for at least six months. If you've been with me for a while, you know that I'm very much 'do things because you enjoy it.' So, when this first started, I thought I'd just take a step back. Eventually, I assumed that I would get my mojo back and all would be ok. It didn't. It still hasn't, really. And so, I guess in my head, it made sense to me that I should just stop entirely.

Pressure was (and is) another thing. I don't deal with pressure (or stress) very well. That's why you'll find a lot of to-do lists near me. It's also why you'll find I'm super organised with my schoolwork. So unsurprisingly, I haven't dealt with this pressure well either. It's stunted me. Instead of working to the best of my ability with editing and video-ing, I'd find that I'd become slack. Every time I thought I was happy with how something had turned out, I realised I wasn't.

Basically, as the number of subscribers rose, my channel become more about effectively putting up a video every week. It wasn't focused on things that I wanted to talk about, or if it was, it wasn't to the standard I like to hold myself to. And I'm a perfectionist, so. You know. It didn't work well. It was like some sort of never-ending cycle.

I would be lying if I said that YouTube itself didn't affect my feelings. I've become increasingly frustrated by its attempts at stopping any maintaining of community. For a while now, YouTube hasn't been sending people's videos to all their subscribers. The video's are only sent to a portion of them. As someone who is/was a creator, it's incredibly disheartening when you find that out. YouTube has also been going through the rounds and changing things (like the commenting system). I'm so entirely over it. Not because I don't deal with change well - I do. In fact, I think it should be encouraged. It just annoys me because YouTube doesn't appear to be caring for its users; rather, it's focusing on the monetary aspects.

So there you have it. These are the main reasons I've stopped with the videos. It's weird that this is finally happening. I've had this mindset since September or October and now it's finally here. It's finally out in the digital world. I've been a little hesitant about this. Perhaps its problems with commitment, but the permanency I feel now is a little disconcerting.

I think I'll be happy with this though. More free. For so many months, I've felt like I have been in this between-world where I couldn't post too many blogs because I was still technically a vlogger, but that's all I wanted to do. It wasn't leaving me with the best mentality. I feel like that sounds really silly, but it's true.

Even though I said above that there was this feeling of permanency, I just want to say that it doesn't mean I'll never make videos again. I might. Who knows what the future holds? Honestly though? It'll just probably be in association with something on the blog. But it might not. Let's see what happens.

So yea. I hope this clears things up. If it doesn't, just comment below or social media or something. You know the drill. More importantly, I hope you guys understand. And I hope you enjoy this blog!

Summer To-Do List

So, on Wednesday (the 16/11/2013) I finished my first year of uni. I packed up my room at college, and came home for the summer. That's pretty insane, isn't it? Ok, maybe it's not insane for most of you. I mean, most of you are probably still in school for at least another five-ish, six-ish months. But this time last year, a whole lot of things were different.

For one thing, I was in another country. Yes, you read that correctly. It's been a full year since the European Adventure (and I still haven't finished putting pictures up because I'm lazy).

I was a pretty different person too. Or, at least I think I was. Uni can do that to a person. In terms of stress management, not much has changed. But I've also made great, great friends. I've learnt more about myself. And my self-confidence is (ever-so-slowly) evolving.

But now I'm on a ridiculously large summer holiday. And (other than working) I have not a whole lot to do. So what do I do? Make a project list, of course. Lists are fantastic, and I thoroughly recommend you make one, one day.

Things I Want to do in Summer:

1. Write/Finish writing a novel

2. Clean and move around my room

3. Cook stuff

4. NEW ZEALAND!

5. Finish my reading goal

6. Do WiiFit/Exercise

7. Re-read Harry Potter

I don't know if I'll add things as I go but this is my basic to-do list. I'm pretty happy with it. I think it's all achievable. In fact, I've already completed one of them.

So, I don't know if you know this about me, but sometimes I get a little restless. I don't actively love change, but I do appreciate it. I cut a lot of my hair off earlier this year. So for me I suppose, the next thing to get the cut was my room.

The basics are still there: a lot of my furniture has remained. Same with the painted walls. Things have just been moved.

Things are still a little messy. I really like it though. I feel like my room looks a lot more open. I'm very happy with it.

In regards to everything else on the list, I'm very slowly making progress. It'll be a good summer though. I can tell. And Christmas is coming up too! That's a little exciting.

Studying Abroad/Travel

In the past few days, my Facebook has been a flurry with status updates announcing that they have been accepted to study abroad. It's making me a little sad. It's not secret that I love travel - it's one of my favourite things in the entire world.

So I can tell you now that when  I came to the realisation that I probably couldn't do a study abroad program, I was devastated. And all these updates are just poking me in the heart repeatedly.

As such, it's come into my head to enjoy the benefits of being a student as much as possible while I can. Basically, I've roped Best Friend Rachael into travelling abroad with me every year or every six months for a week or two.

I'm really excited. New Zealand is first on the list. We're starting to plan, and I'm getting really really REALLY excited. We've decided that we're just going to stay on the North Island for this trip, and that later on down the track, we'll do the South Island.

We've nearly got the flights sorted out, and we're starting to prep ourselves for making an itinerary. I know this probably isn't at all exciting for most of you, but I am so incredibly excited to be going out into the world again and seeing new things.

First stop? New Zealand.
Next stop? Who knows (though I'm kinda hoping it's Japan. DISNEYLAND).

Haircut

In case you were wondering - I've finally cut my hair.

(Also, I'm sort of in love with it/really happy with how the hairdresser cut it, so if you don't like it too bad)

(I mean seriously. I cannot wait to try and curl it tomorrow morning. It's gr8)

A Break.

I recently have taken a break from YouTube. This wasn't a sudden decision; in fact it was almost certainly a gradual thing. I found that every time I filmed a new video, a new sort of disdain would enter my head and I'd just not be entirely proud of the end result.

So I did something that I haven't done in my three years of making videos - I took a purposeful (and necessary) break. To be honest, I'm really happy I did. I know some people might think it's stupid, but I I am really, really happy I did. Instead of the feelings of disdain or reluctance, I'm starting to feel a little more enthusiastic. I've done editing on videos that have been stored away for a rainy day. I'm playing around with different styles.

As a side effect though, this blog became a little malnourished. And I'm truly sorry about that, but I need to just take a step back from everything that is crowding my head. I know I've said this a million times, but expect more book reviews, and other things that I'm working on.

I decided that I was going to take a month off YouTube, and I'm still putting that into play. I know that it might give people reason to unsubscribe, or that you don't really care, but right now the thing I need is distance. I am coming back; just not right away.

Meanwhile, I'm going to continue distancing myself a little, I will find some way to release the pent up creative energy, and proceed to watch bad movies that shouldn't make me cry but for some reason, do (I'm looking at you Cyberbully).

So keep the 20th of August free and expect a video.

Restlessness and Hair.

At this present moment in time (the time being the 3rd of July 2013), I am feeling a certain sense of restlessness when I start thinking about my hair. Call me vain and superficial all you want, but it's on my head 24/7, so technically I can't help it. Since about Grade 3 though, I have, every five years or so, a moment of impulsiveness and I kid you not, I cut all my hair off. Now, when I say 'cut all my hair off,' I don't mean like Emma-Watson-cut-all-my-hair-off. What I mean, is I-cut-a-significant-portion-of-my-quite-long-hair-off. I've come to fondly regard this as my personal 'five year itch.'

And guess what? The bug is itching again, because surprise surprise - it's been about five years since the last time I had shorter hair. I don't know if I'll go through with it (but let's be real - I probably will), however in case I do, I have started collecting pictures of haircuts I appreciate and am considering.

Seeing as I've never been particularly good at making decisions (also, I'm not a hairstylist), I thought that it may help me if I got your guys's opinions on them. Alas, go forth and conquer!

(a quiet note here: i'm not changing my hair colour - it's just my hair cut)

1. Ashley Benson - Mid Length

I dunno, I'm just really been digging Ashley Benson's hair recently. I think this haircut is a good length and it doesn't have a complete middle parting (which is something I feel I don't suit). Plus, it looks like it's long enough to put in a pony tail, which would be helpful. It also looks like it may have layers and I heart my hair with layers, so yea. I have another one of her haircuts at a slightly shorter length a little bit down, too.
yay or nay?

2. Carey Mulligan

I quite like this. I mean, honestly it seems quite similar to the Ashley Benson one above, so I don't know if that's why, but yea. It looks like there aren't many (if any) layers, and I don't really know how I feel about it. It seems a bit thicker than the first one, but I don't know whether that's because of how it's styled, or not. The other small problem is that it's centre parted, and like I mentioned above, I don't think I suit a centre parting.

yay or nay?

3. Keira Knightley

This one seems a bit longer than the other two. This would be kinda good if I decide I don't like my hair shorter. Plus, it's got the side parting (so check!) and it's got a side fringe as well. That could be fun. The last time I had a fringe was probably three or four years ago. Can't really tell if there's any layers or not though.
yay or nay?

4. Ashley Benson - Shorter Length

See? Told you she'd make another appearance! I like this one because it seems like it's only a teensy bit shorter and the side parting is a bit more to my tastes. It looks like there may be a few layers in there too, so that's nice as well. I don't know if that's a little too short though. If possible, I think I'd prefer my hair to be long enough to put up, I think, and I can't really tell whether or not that's just her hair's actual length or if it's been put up to look that way.

yay or nay?

5. Karen Gillan

Karen Gillan got a haircut! OMG! I really like it though. Like, it's really, really nice. Good choice, A+ Kazza. (Also, sorry. This is the best photo I could find of it). She's styled it so it's a centre part, but I reckon if I got a full fringe, I could pull it off. It's looks a little sixties, to be honest, but I'm ok with that because the 60's are cool. Looks like a good length, but I can't tell about layers.

yay or nay?

edit: so it turns out this was probably a wig. that's a little awkies.

So, they're the haircuts I'm thinking of. To be honest, I'm leaning towards one of the Ashley Benson cuts (probably the mid-length one, to be more specific). I dunno, I just really like the way they're styled. 

Which ones do you think would suit? 

I'm so terrible with these things, so I really don't know how it'd look.

Revelation of the Day

I really like this green colour.

Chocolate.

You know what the worst part of being sick at this moment in time is? That it's Easter. Now you're probably whispering out the sides of your mouths going 'Dude, where's she going with this? Has she finally lost it?'

I'll have you know that Easter happens to be my favourite time of the year. 'Ahhh,' you're all probably going, you understand now. But I don't think you truly do. You know why? Because up until this moment you probably didn't have the knowledge that mucus (that disgusting green thing that comes out of your nose) actually likes the stuff in chocolate - in fact, it thrives on chocolate, and prolongs its stay in your body with the stuff in chocolate.

Now you understand my being frustrated. As a bit of a chocolate whore (and Susie can attest to this), I very much have a hard time not eating chocolate once every week. Being at uni, I have probably gone through six plus withdrawals in regards to chocolate. It is a goal of mine to make the world see the beauty of it. And please, don't even get me started on the idea of chocolate going extinct (or more specifically, cocoa beans). That is just terrifying.

So being sick, at Easter, frankly is not an option for me. I wasn't even aware of this medical tragedy until last year, when I was talking to Best Friend Rachael about how I was munching on chocolate to make my (then sick) self feel better, and she broke the news to me. I refused to believe her until the Mother confirmed my suspicions, and now I'm just being pig-headedly ignorant because chocolate.

So, moral of the story, kids - BE HEALTHY AT EASTER SO YOU CAN ACTUALLY EAT CHOCOLATE WITHOUT PROLONGING THE LIFESPAN OF THE BACTERIA IN YOUR BODY.

I'm done now, and to just spite myself, I'm going to go eat chocolate.

A Kindred Spirit.

The other day, I had a big revelation (like being kicked-in-the-head revelation). I realised that I want to go back to the U.K. Like, really really want to go back.

This isn't me subtly trying to say that I'm not enjoying uni. It's the opposite in fact. I'm loving uni - I've made friends, I love my classes and lecturers and I've had relatively very little issue with living away from home for the first time.

It's just ---- U.K. England. Scotland.

You know when you meet someone and it's the easiest thing in the world because the conversation just flows and you have heaps in common? And you think, 'well, I've just met a kindred spirit.'

That's my feelings towards England. It (yes, the whole country) just gets me. It gets that I love history and the arts and colder weather. I love that London is so multicultural - that's not to say Australia isn't, it's just that London is to such a bigger extent. I love that in just under three hours, driving by car, you can be in another country entirely. You can't drive to another country in Australia unless you're keen on death by drowning.

I'm seriously considering applying for a study abroad right now. I really don't know though. Chances are, the whole expedition would be expensive, and in my second year I'd be starting my second major (which I'm really excited about).

I know I want to travel and live abroad, I just don't know how to go about it. Maybe I should wait until I'm a little more financially stable, and I have a more impressive resume. I don't know.

I hate being a sort-of adult, it's so conflicting.