As I sit here, by myself, in front of the obnoxiously large computer screen, trying to make myself do music theory with news that my family and I are getting our new car today, something occurred to me. Other than the obscene amount of commas I just used then, it was actually that it's only a month until I'm allowed to get my learner's license. That's right. In a little under thirty days (Australia time), it shall be my birthday and I'll be allowed to DRIVE.
That thought scares me and belittles my witty attitude about the world frighteningly easily. I think the thing the scares me the most is the fact that there is this tiny but ginormous idea in my head that as soon as I get my (actual) license, I'll graduate from school forever. It feels like I'm growing up too fast and that in little under 18 months, my life as a high school student will be over.
DONE. FINISHED. FINITO.
I know what you're all thinking: 'Jocie, you won't stop being a student though. There's still university.'
But that doesn't really change anything, does it? You know, there was this statistic one of my friends told me last year. That only 2 in 10 friends will be your friends after you finish high school (or something like that). Now, I don't know about you, but I seriously love my friends. They're the greatest beings who ruled the world. The thought of not seeing them five days a week makes me sad and nostalgic for the days when everything was simple. When, if you both loved the same colour, then instantaneously you were best friends.
I hate the idea that once high school is gone and I've left that part of my life behind, everything will change and I'll suddenly be some sort of loner. I'll be the first to admit that I am a very, very shy person in real life. Despite my cheerful and vigorous tone in my blogs, I find it very hard to actually talk to people I don't know in real life.
ANYWHO. THAT, is not the point of this blog post.
It's about the shiny, new CAR we have. It's a Mazda 6. And it's silver. And it has new car smell. I lurveeee new car smell. It looks all new and fancy, and I'm sorta terrified I'm going to crash it. But OH WELL.
OK. THAT'S MY PHILOSOPHICAL RANT FOR TODAY. I'VE GOT TO GO AND DO MUSIC THEORY (watch YouTube videos) NOW.
Books Currently Reading: Imaginary Girls by Nova Ren Suma. (Despite the fact it's taking me forever to read it, I seriously love it. Blame library books)
Linger by Maggie Stiefvater
Revolution by Jennifer Donnely.
Words written this month: 978 (that is pathetic. No, really. In the month of May, I can write over 27,000 but I can't for June? *le sigh*)
p.s. Yes, my blog title is a Rupert Grint movie. WHAT OF IT?